—For My Lover
every day I’m psychoanalyzed for my lover, for my lover
they dope me up and I tell them lies for my lover, for my lover
perfect red line in a Hungarian forest marking the high point of a toxic aluminum sludge spill
You forgave me in a dream the other night. The more you told me it was alright, the worse I felt. I know that you were only doing it because you knew I couldn’t possibly hurt you more than I already had. I could see what forgiving me was doing to you. I know that you think I’m too stupid to figure it all out. When you forgave me, you knew that it was finally over. The pain would leave me, I would forget you and you would never see me again except in a dream. It is sad that the things that we saw in each other are no longer there. It is a shame that we tore each other apart looking for things that we needed desperately but could never find. It is tragic that we only wanted to give to each other but only stole from ourselves and blamed each other for the emptiness in our lives. I see you differently now. I no longer fear you. It took years to see you for what you really are.
—Mercy [Strings Version]